Today

Jilligan is trying to talk me into running still. We are supposed to go for a run today, can't remember if it is 5 or 6 miles. I told her we have to go slower than normal since I haven't ran in 2.5 weeks. If I end up in the hospital I will let you know.

Dropping Out

I think I am going to be a quitter. Too much stress right now. Stuff with the kids, and stuff at church, plus something must be seriously wrong with my iron levels. Seriously want to go to bed at 4 every afternoon and even get to be at 9 and still don't want to wake up in the morning. Wish I had medical insurance to figure out what the heck is wrong, but I don't. So for now, I am thinking about not doing the half. Haven't ran in two weeks anyway!

I'm Alive!!!

Ok, seriously I am really here. I finally got internet at my house which happens to be way out in timbuktu. They were afraid the wireless wouldn't work way out here, so they gave it to me for one night to try and I have to actually go pay for it tomorrow. Which is nice, because I can already tell I need the faster service than they put me on tonight. I hate waiting for things to load. Anyway, I digress.

My training has not been so great lately. Why? You might ask. I have no idea. The last two weeks I have been having some stomach issues. Finally went to the doctor last Tuesday. (When you don't have insurance, you hold on for as long as possible) When I was pouring sweat and in great pain from stomach cramps, my cousin finally convinced me to go. We will see what the bill turn out to be and all that has changed is that I am now taking Zantac. Am I feeling better? YES. Have I run? NO. Seriously just can't get motivated. So basically I haven't run anything in about a week and a half. Yes, I know that the race is coming up shortly, but still just can't get motivated.

So here I sit, in my running clothes, catching up on all the "internet stuff" I have been needing to do for the last 3 months. Will I run tonight? Who knows. Seriously need some help with the motivation. Maybe it will help now that I can read everyone else's blogs and see that other people are in it with me. We will see.

Projects

Last night I went shopping... It honestly looks like Christmas exploded in my living room and kitchen. I have a very small apartment and everything needs to be in its place, or it can be a disaster. So with my tree, it already puts everything out of whack. So I got great gifts for the kids yesterday. The box for Abby's is 4 feet tall. It took more than one roll of wrapping paper to wrap it. So now there is really no extra room. Lots of fun.

I am sure that most people when the start a project, they finish it. Somehow I have like ten Christmas projects going, all at different stages. I would really like to get some of them done, so I can actually feel like I have accomplished something.

I did decide that in my Jana Dream House, I want a craft room with lots of shelfs and work spaces. Right now I have a craft corner and my kitchen table. Lets just say my rubbermaid runneth over. However, all of the projects are good so far, so I will just keep plugging away.

Note for next year: must start early!

Blah!

I know, I know, I haven't written in forever. Been going through one of those times lately, where it is tough to even function with normal activities. Don't know why I have been so blue lately, may have to get new meds. We will see. It just makes me more sad to think about going back to the doctor for that since I don't have any insurance. Yuck. Anywho...

Started seriously training for the half-marathon in April. Jill devised a specific running plan for me that I am thoroughly enjoying. Never thought I could be one of those people who actually looks forward to tying up the shoes and running. It is a really good release for me and then I always let myself enjoy a steamy soak in the tub. So I love the rewards. On one of the episodes of Biggest Loser, Jillian was telling one of the contestants, to picture her body. So I try to think about that. I picture my body how I want it to look in April and it is great motivation.

I am still running on my treadmill. I would like to take it outside, but I really don't have any gear for that. What do you guys think is absolutely essential for cold weather running?

I am not cracking. I just decided that it wasn't something I could stick with. My plan is to just eat healthy! Thought about counting calories, but I don't want to have to always be thinking about that. So after I indulged all weekend, I am just planning on eating sensibly. Enjoy more fruits and veggies and go from there. We will see where it gets me.

I just watched Bridget Jones' Diary for the first time last night. It was on tv and I stayed up til midnight watching. It really cracked me up. Need more movies like that. Hope everyone has a great week!

Keep Runnin' Runnin' and Runnin' Runnin'

Here is some good news for me. I added up my total running for last month and here is the total: 21.176 miles. Not bad for the first month of running. Then even better, I ran for 20 minutes straight! Yay me. Next week is when everyone is starting WOE over again. Hope everyone is on board.

Getting into the Christmas spirit. Last weekend, Mom and I went to Hobby Lobby to get some supplies for Emma's sports scrapbook, and they were playing Christmas music. I am already used to all the decorations up everywhere, but Christmas music? Anyway, I have really been watching for great Christmas ideas. This year I am trying to have a very minimalistic Christmas. Lots of home-made presents. I would like to say that it is to teach my children the true meaning of Christmas and that money doesn't buy everything. But seriously, I am just flat out broke. lol Maybe they will learn something anyway. This Saturday we are going to start the process of making some of them. So when you get your crappy present from me, remember its truly from the heart.

Motivation

Thought I would ask a question... What is everyone's motivation to run? When your legs are killing you, sweat is running down your back, the stitch in your side is screaming, what makes you take another stride?